dkrc Chapter 256: Likes that can't be liked
Chapter 256: Likes that can't be liked
"Xia Mo……"
Li Hao opened his mouth. Seeing Xia Mo's face without sadness or joy, he felt a tingling pain in his heart for no apparent reason.
The porcelain spoon in Xia Mo's hand bumped into the wall of the bowl unconsciously, making a ding-and-dangling sound. She looked forward with her eyes, and her tone seemed to carry a vague sigh, "The person who really cares about me left five years ago. I."
"..."
Li Hao is silent, he doesn't know much about Xia Mo's family situation, only a general idea.
Xia Mo's parents had divorced a long time ago. His mother was devoted to business, his father was addicted to gambling but not doing business, and he had an older brother who was idle.
Compared to an ordinary family, her family is considered to be incomplete, not to mention the warm and sweet affection, according to what she just said, she has never even received the basic care from her family.
Perhaps after the person who really cared about her left, Xia Mo has been growing up lonely until now. Most of her current cold personality is also related to this growing atmosphere.
In this way, Xia Mo's active caring behavior that was out of daily human settings can also get a reasonable explanation-because she lacks love.
But she was slapped righteously, taking advantage of the void, to make up for this vacancy in her mind.
In other words, her feelings for herself are not just liking, but also an instinctive dependence.
Thinking of this, Li Hao's gaze softened when he looked at Xia Mo, and his pity was beyond words.
Perceiving Li Hao's gaze, Xia Mo turned his face to look at him, and said:
"Are you sympathizing with me in your heart?"
"Um."
Li Hao nodded and stretched out his fingers to gently rub her jade-like pretty face.
"I don't need to be sympathetic."
Xia Mo's eyes drooped slightly and said lightly: "It's enough for you to accompany me this day."
"I... don't want to have only this day."
"..."
Xia Mo raised his eyes to look at Li Hao again, tilted his head, and said, "You are very greedy."
"There is no man who is not greedy."
Li Hao looked into her eyes and said.
Xia Mo was silent for a while, and said: "But greed will not result."
"But not being greedy must be fruitless."
Li Hao said firmly and forcefully.
"..."
Xia Mo didn't speak, and continued to look at Li Hao for a while, then turned his head back, lowered his head and said something to himself.
"What?"
Xia Mo's voice was too small, and Li Hao didn't pay attention to it.
"It's nothing, let's continue eating breakfast."
"..."
Xia Mo's expression was as calm as usual, Li Hao couldn't see her inner thoughts, he sighed silently, and continued to eat breakfast.
...
After coming out of the Wonton Shop, Li Hao carried Xia Mo on his back and continued to wander around. First, he wandered around and bought some snacks as snacks in front of several food stalls, and then the two came to the street.
The sun hangs high, and the sunlight in the sky becomes dazzling. Although it is not scorching, Li Hao still feels a little hot after walking with Xia Mo on his back for a while.
"Do you feel warm?"
Xia Mo, who had been quietly lying on Li Hao's back, suddenly asked, touching Li Hao's cheek with some cold fingers.
"A little."
Li Hao looked up at the azure blue sky, and said, "But today's weather is pretty good. It's suitable for a walk like this. It's not bad to bask in the sun like this for a long time."
"Yeah~"
Xia Mo lazily squinted her eyes, like a kitten enjoying the warm sunshine in the winter.
"Are there any places you want to go?"
Li Hao continued walking for a while, and asked sideways while waiting for the traffic light at the street.
Xia Mo closed her eyes and didn't speak, as if she was asleep.
After a while, he slowly said, "Go there..."
...
The two came to a park.
Today’s weather is very good, sunny, and there are many people who come to the park for walks and play, and you can see old people playing around with their children everywhere.
Xia Mo looked at the warm and lively scenes in the distance, her eyes flashed with nostalgia.
Li Hao felt a little, and came to the bench by the roadside to gently put Xia Mo down, sat next to her, and tidyed up her clothes.
"When I was young, my grandma often brought me here."
Xia Mo looked into the distance and spoke actively.
Li Hao followed her gaze into the distance and listened quietly.
It seems that the person in Xia Mo’s mouth that really cares about her is her grandmother. This is the place of memories of her childhood, full of love and warmth. Maybe it’s the conversation that evoked the past, so I wanted to come over and take a look. .
"Since my grandma passed away, I have never been here again. Apart from grandma, you are the first person to come here with me."
"I am very honored."
"I once thought that the people who would come here with me, except for my grandmother, must be people who can stay with me for a lifetime." Xia Mo continued, his tone misty.
"……I'm very sorry."
Once this topic is involved, Li Hao always feels guilty for no reason.
"That was what I thought before, and then I didn't expect much."
Xia Mo's eyes drooped, and the corners of her mouth curled up in a self-deprecating arc, "A person like me will not get true love."
Li Hao's heart was a little blocked, and he said a little bit: "There is no need to be so pretentious..."
"This is not arrogant, I realized this a long time ago."
Xia Mo raised his hand and stroked the wind-blown hair in his ear, and said, "Because I can't really fall in love with other people myself.
"Love and being loved are equal, you can't have it without giving."
"..."
Li Hao fell silent, and at the same time realized how much the broken family environment had on Xia Mo's life.
Too lacking in love, she has been unable to fully open her heart to others. If her grandma had not given her a short and warm family affection, she might have completely closed herself.
So her cold coat now is not entirely a disguise for self-protection, but also a part of the external reflection of her true inner world.
A deep feeling of pity welled up in Li Hao's heart, and he stretched out his hand to gently embrace Xia Mo's thin and delicate shoulders.
Xia Mo leaned his head to Li Hao's arms and continued:
"Since childhood, from elementary school to high school to university, I have always known clearly that there are many people around me who like me and have a crush on me. There is no shortage of attention around me.
"It's just that I know that what they like is my face, this body and the so-called temperament that emanates from me. You boys don't all like the cold beautiful girls in anime, but my image just fits them. Aesthetic, so they imagined me as a perfect girl, and gave me the title of a goddess.
"I see all of this in my eyes, but in fact I don't hate it, because this is an innate advantage brought by my body and gender. It is a natural advantage. I will not refuse the aura it brings to me."
While speaking, Xia Mo looked up at Li Hao's eyes and said:
"Even you, I like my body more. If I look ugly or mediocre, would you still hold me like this?"
Xia Mo's question hit the soul, Li Hao smiled wistfully, without answering.
Who is not a face-controller these days?
People who deny that they are color-controlled people are because they have no chance to contact. The pursuit of beauty is an instinct carved into human genes. If you have the ability and have the opportunity, no one will refuse the pursuit of more beauty.
Of course, you can't say this to your face. Some things will not be broken if you see it through, otherwise it will change your taste.
The answer was as expected, Xia Mo was not surprised, lowered his head again, and said lightly:
"There are many people who like me. Most of them have a crush on me like Tang Wei. Perhaps in their eyes, I am really the kind of person who is inaccessible. The halo on my body restrains them. Many of them I didn’t say a few words to me in the whole high school, but I talked a lot on QQ.”
Li Hao sighed and said:
"It's me, maybe I will be one of them when I was in high school."
Xia Mo tilted his head to look at him, with an expression that I didn't believe at all.
Xia Mo was so cute this way, Li Hao couldn't help but lowered his head and kissed her on the face.
Xia Mo didn't evade Li Hao's actions, and continued to say:
"So I said, Tang Wei has never really understood me, and other people are the same. I will not respond to such superficial likes. I think this situation will continue until I meet you. ."
"In this way, in your heart, I am still a special person?" Li Hao asked with a smile.
"Correct."
Xia Mo did not deny, "You are the first boy to get along with me in other ways."
"It's an honor to be the first person to eat crabs." Li Hao looked honored.
Xia Mo gave Li Hao a white look and continued:
"This way of getting along is very fresh to me, but at first I really hated you."
Li Hao keenly caught a certain key point and asked:
"Then you like it now?"
"No, it's still annoying now." Xia Mo said indifferently.
"Well...you are not frank enough in this respect. I hate that you slept with me last night?" Li Hao teased, "And someone last night..."
Xia Mo suddenly glared at Li Hao, and Li Hao immediately closed his mouth.
"The two are not contradictory."
With an attractive pink face, Xia Mo said, "I still hate you in my heart, but I really like the feeling that you hold me now."
Li Hao silently, this is the legendary one who got the heart but didn't get the heart.
"I thought about the reason, probably because your arms look like my grandma..."
With nostalgia and reminiscence in her eyes, Xia Mo curled up into Li Hao's arms, "With you, it feels like returning to the time when I was a child."
"..."
Although the reason has already been guessed, Li Hao's mood is still somewhat inexplicably complicated when he heard it from Xia Mo's mouth.
This feeling is like being a tool person that can be replaced, and I am full of unwillingness.
"Love and being loved are equal, I can't like you, so as the price of relying on your "love", I give you my body."
Xia Mo looked up at Li Hao, with a faint smile on his mouth, "This is a fair deal. I don't want to owe anyone anything. You don't have to have a psychological burden, and you don't have to promise me anything.
"Because the transaction only ends today."
call--
A gust of wind blew and rolled up the golden ginkgo leaves on the ground, Xia Mo's hair was flying messily, with a small smile on his face, silently looking at Li Hao.
"I don't agree."
For a long time, Li Hao shook his head and took a ginkgo leaf from Xia Mo's head.
Xia Mo didn't speak, but looked at him quietly.
"Can you really like me?"
Li Hao looked at the ginkgo biloba in his hand and asked, his voice low, as if he could penetrate his heart.
"It makes no sense to lie to you."
Xia Mo replied without delay.
"Oh."
Li Hao nodded, put the ginkgo biloba leaves on the bench, hugged Xia Mo, and kissed her lips fiercely.
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